Sunlight Dancing

Take Your Flame, Ignite The World.

So I took a few photos today at Kirby Park again. That place never gets old really. It’s about 1:15 in the morning on Tuesday and everyone’s stopped functioning and went to sleep.

Meanwhile, I can’t. I’m stressed and tired and just feeling plain aggravated. Last night was a great time, and I wish I could have that every night of the week. I wish I could have seized the opportunity more when it presented itself, but such is life. 

Enjoy some photos – I love my camera and I’m happy to have it back out for such things and I’m glad the weather has been amazing actually. It’s finally spring and summer soon. I hope it just doesn’t jump right to summer, I’ll be a bit disappointed because we had no spring at all yet except for this past weekend.

“If you smile at me I will understand, cause that is something everybody
everywhere does in the same language.” -Wooden Ships

Sunlight Dancing







I Wish I May, I Wish I Might…

I haven’t written in a few weeks. I’ve been meaning to, I just find it harder and harder to function daily with the recent job loss and other things going on in my life. I can honestly say, I’m not happy with where my life is right now, and I need to do something about it. I can’t find a job for the life of me in this area, but I’m trying. I have all the qualifications for Office work and I don’t know why these people aren’t calling me back for jobs when I clearly am a good fit for most if not all of them. Even through the Unemployment website I’ve been applying and looking and doing everything I can recently. It’s just not fair sometimes. I wish things were easier, but then it wouldn’t be called life I guess. There are alot of things I have been wishing for recently, but none of it seems to be going my way at all and it’s starting to become frustrating beyond belief.

I wish so called “friends” were actually friends to me. I’m not a second choice and I’m not an after thought. I am the first choice or you don’t give an ultimatum. If you’re my friend, you wouldn’t say “Yeah, sure, if I’m not going over so and so’s house or doing something else.” If I’m asking you, it means yes or no, not to decide after your better something can’t hang out or you can’t do something else.

I wish people realized that I’m a good person. I’m not stupid, retarded, crazy or any other things that people make me out to be. So I like texting, big whoop. Get over yourself and grow up and answer when I talk to you or something. Get over it. Can’t talk to you or see you in any other way so I’m sorry that the only communication I have with some people is through the phone. And people nowadays don’t even want to talk on the phone or god forbid video chat. What is wrong with people these days? Stop throwing excuses at me and be a damn friend to me.

I wish there were more jobs available and that people would see that I am a good fit for a lot of the ones that are posted that I reply to. I shouldn’t have to go chasing for anything at all. That’s not how this works. I apply, I follow up, I expect an answer whether it’s a yes or no. Ignorance is not my friend, and especially in the work place of any kind. I don’t care if it’s a grocery store or an office job or I’m your manager. You answer me when I talk to you and in a polite fashion as well.

I wish I got treated with more respect than what I’m given. To be perfectly honest, alot of people don’t realize that when life knocks you down, it’s very hard to get back up without the help of friends or family. To put someone even farther in the ground when they’re already down is just not going to help them get back up. Reach a hand out and help who’s even down and maybe one day something nice will happen for you. I’m always the one helping people it seems and I hardly ever get anything in return from those I help or those that mean most to me. It seems I have bad choice in people, because when I would gladly take a bullet for someone, they wouldn’t do so for me, unless it’s my mom. And that I know. But yet, I continue to help people. It’s my downfall. And I never get anything back for it even in the kindness of a thank you or something else of the like.

I wish I could find a job in design or photography or something that I love doing. I haven’t been able to locate anything here and it’s not a big city. I don’t have the money to move to a big city and live there just to find a job that’s just going to support rent and nothing else. It’s almost pointless for me to go back to school now really to get anything new completed unless it’s an online course or certification of some sorts. But that is one option for me really.

Am I loud and clear, or am I breaking up?
Am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer, or are we just getting more lost?
I’ll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let’s compare scars, I’ll tell you whose is worse
Let’s unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words
We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I’ll slave till the end,
I won’t cross these streets until you hold my hand
I’ve been here so long, I think that it’s time to move
The winter’s so cold, summer’s over too soon
Let’s pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow
I’ve got some friends, some that I hardly know
But we’ve had some times, I wouldn’t trade for the world
We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go

Been at this now for awhile. Nothing’s going to get accomplished by writing and blabbering on here unless someone decides to be a friend and want to talk to me about what’s bothering me really. I maybe have a select few people I actually tell everything to. And even those people shouldn’t be told things because they just use them against me all the time anyway.



|| Koral Dawn ||


Sunday Mania – The Feels

So I’m sitting here watching Wrestlemania alone. I knew I was going to, everyone is way too tired to do anything and you know what, I kinda am as well so I don’t care. I can enjoy my house by myself since I’m alone tonight and I can chill. It’s good to be alone sometimes. But not all the time.

I’m actually quite enjoying this year’s stuff. I wish Sting won though. Shawn Michaels, you pretty older man, stop messing with the wrestlers. It was cool to see nWo and Hulk and all of DX again and for them to all be civil like. Even all the old guys coming out to congratulate Daniel Bryan was pretty awesome too, with all the one liners who were past Intercontinental Champs. I wish I could have gone to Mania and had this experience. But I’d only want to go if I was sitting close. I’m not paying that money to see specks of dust float in front of my eyes from that high up in a stadium.

The halftime show if you want to call it that could have used some work. Really? You could only get Skylar Grey or whoever she is? You can’t get Kid Rock again or something better? I mean Travis Barker was a good choice… but ya’ll need something better I think. This would have been my time to go pee and get food at this point because I’m kind of bored listening on TV lol.

You know, I think I would be a wonderful Diva for the WWE. I can be a bad-ass hardcore woman and I know I can pull off the cuteness kind of. Mix AJ‘s craziness with Paige‘s looks… I got this. Does anyone know if there’s anyone names Ravyn in WWE, lol. I’d go hand in hand with Sting and we’d be badass… Hey, a girl ca dream can’t she? Maybe one day. I’m already almost 25. No better time to start than 2015 before I turn a quarter century year old right? #letsdothis

So then The Rock showed up… and 76,000 people’s eyes lit up and I’m like well then.. who DOESN’T like The Rock?? You have to be dumb if you don’t like him and Stone Cold Steve Austin. “Okay, we get it, you’re happy to see him, can we be quiet now?” Gee Stephanie, you’re quite the bitch tonight, lol. But you’re still hot so it’s okay. Just stop doing stupid stuff and actually do “what’s best for business.” “You can either go back there and dress like Terminator again… or we can create a Wrestlemania moment right now, right here.” This guy is probably one of my favorites ever in WWE even though he doesn’t show often. I wish he came back for more than just major things. I really hope they bring out some girl to fight Stephanie because she’s a bitch and it’s kind of awesome. I wish The Rock would fight her…. that’d be awesome. Or bring out Stone Cold, because why the hell not? I mean, I guess a UFC fighter would do you know. She can take her ass down no problem. Staged, obviously, but still. More badass then WWE. “She gonna play jumprope with your fallopian tubes.” 

Undertaker is back, which makes me happy. Even though the streak was ended… that doesn’t matter. Bray Wyatt is pretty nifty too though. His stage show is just awesome, too bad it’s not dark there for it though. It needs to be dark in the stadium for the  candle light. It’s too early in the day for his awesomeness. He looks pretty damn good for his age and size, and definitely better than last year. He’s a huge man, lol, I’d never want to meet him in person because I’d be a midget and probably run and hide. True story. He looks super fit right now and has hair; but I’d never be able to wrestle in jeans like he does. Alright this match is taking too long, as much as I love him. But hey, he won so that’s all that matters. Looks like he hurt himself too with that head bop, ouch.

The only thing we have left now is Roman Reigns, and DAMN, is he sexy too. I could care less about Brock… he’s a sissy anyway and quit MMA also. Get some eyebrows man, you’re really starting to scare the children. Why would you say “I respect no one?” How rude can you be? Check yourself, before you wreck yourself bro.

Well anyway, it was a good show. I wish CM Punk came back… that would have been the best part if they brought him out just well, just because. I miss him. He was always such a good mic person and knew how to piss off the crowd.

It’s getting late and I need nappy time. It’s been a long weekend. Long… but good actually starting from Friday night.